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I had a conversation with my older brother that honestly kind of broke me. I don't know how the topic even got brought up, but we were talking about therians and alterhumans, and I said I didn't care as long as no one is getting hurt. I didn't wanna just say I am a therian without knowing what the reaction would be, so I used to opportunity to test the waters and find out what he thinks.
He said that my identity is a mental illness. He said that all therians parents should dictate what their kids identity is to prevent them from being a therian, He's convinced it's all just pretend, or illness, and anyone that supports therianthropy is just enabling the illness. He talked about being a therian the way that transphobes talk about trans people.
"It's a mental illness, you aren't this"
I thought of any family member, he would be the one that was most likely to be okay with it. He let me down, he hurt me, and he doesn't even know. He never will, because now I know that I'm not safe to be myself. Around him, or any other member of my family.
It's sad when your only safe place is with strangers you met online. It's strange when they're more supportive of you than your own mother or father is. My mother told me therians should be institutionalized.
It's not an illness, I'm not delusional, my memories and my feelings are real. I just wish the people that are supposed to care about me would see that. I wish they loved me unconditionally like they said they do, instead of picking me apart and only supporting what they deem "normal".
I guess I'm kind of happy I had that interaction, in a way. I like to know who I can trust. Now I know I can't trust my family. That's heartbreaking, and hurtful, and I feel so betrayed I might vomit, but... at least I know who my real family is.
He said that my identity is a mental illness. He said that all therians parents should dictate what their kids identity is to prevent them from being a therian, He's convinced it's all just pretend, or illness, and anyone that supports therianthropy is just enabling the illness. He talked about being a therian the way that transphobes talk about trans people.
"It's a mental illness, you aren't this"
I thought of any family member, he would be the one that was most likely to be okay with it. He let me down, he hurt me, and he doesn't even know. He never will, because now I know that I'm not safe to be myself. Around him, or any other member of my family.
It's sad when your only safe place is with strangers you met online. It's strange when they're more supportive of you than your own mother or father is. My mother told me therians should be institutionalized.
It's not an illness, I'm not delusional, my memories and my feelings are real. I just wish the people that are supposed to care about me would see that. I wish they loved me unconditionally like they said they do, instead of picking me apart and only supporting what they deem "normal".
I guess I'm kind of happy I had that interaction, in a way. I like to know who I can trust. Now I know I can't trust my family. That's heartbreaking, and hurtful, and I feel so betrayed I might vomit, but... at least I know who my real family is.
