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I've begun to wonder if being a clown means more to me and my identity than I originally thought. I had always thought that I was just a clown enthusiast and I liked to have my little clown characters, but I think there's more to it than that.
I feel like a clown. Like I'm always a clown, I feel like it's an important piece of my identity. I don't know if it's connected to my gender or another part of my identity, but I know that clowns mean something for me. I feel connected to them, I feel like I always am one, even without the makeup. Like being a clown is a piece of my soul somehow.
I'm not sure what this means or how to define it, I just know I'm a clown in a way I never thought before. There's more to my clown side than just makeup and a character. I think.
I feel like a clown. Like I'm always a clown, I feel like it's an important piece of my identity. I don't know if it's connected to my gender or another part of my identity, but I know that clowns mean something for me. I feel connected to them, I feel like I always am one, even without the makeup. Like being a clown is a piece of my soul somehow.
I'm not sure what this means or how to define it, I just know I'm a clown in a way I never thought before. There's more to my clown side than just makeup and a character. I think.
